Defying Gravity

Well, it happened!...I'm going to COLLEGE!!!!!!!!

God is SO good! God provided the needed funds for me to at least attend school for one semester. After that, I am not sure, but NOW is taken care of!

I am the first in my family to do something like this. Against all odds, I am doing this! I am Defying Gravity!!!!

Please pray for me as I embark upon this great, new adventure! I am so excited to see how God will use this experience in my life, and use me in the lives of others! 

New Found Creativity. For now.

‎*Sung to the tune of this song  from The Emperors New Groove. *

"Happy happy birthday from just me to you, I don't wish it was my birthday, cause I can't par'y with you! Happy happy birthday from only me to you. So glad it is your birthday, cause you're a speci'al-a-roo!"


Yes, at this moment, I am feeling quite inventive. Not that I really am. I just feel like it for now. It will leave shortly. I am immensely tired right now. So, when I have gotten some sleep and am not on such an adrenaline high from such a long day, the normality of my weird thinking will return.

I wrote this to my brother, Daniel just now for his birthday. He is turning 26 years of age today. I just wanted to use some of my creative skeelz to show him how much I love him and am thinking about him on the first birthday I have without him. Yes, one year ago(almost) he was stolen from me. From one of the most beautiful ladies in the world. My sister-in-law. Yup. Stolen. And I am very saddened that I will never have him back, but! I will soon be taken as well, and he will "lose" me, in a sense.

I hope you know that you will always have me, though. I am and will always be your sister and I will always love you. Very much. <3

So, Daniel, this one is to you. Because I love you. Very much, and I miss you even more. :')

Love,
Your Caity Lynn
(AKA, your favorite sister, right?!)

College = Pending(Still)

I haven't mentioned this yet, because I 1) don't know if it will happen and 2) didn't want to get my hopes so far up to the point of telling people, just to have my own dreams crushed, once again.

But for two months, I have been planning on attending Northland International University in Dunbar, Wisconsin with an associates degree in Women and Family Ministries. I have had to many delays. Not sure who all to blame, and it doesn't matter, anyway. God is taking care of everything as I type, so I dont' worry about that.

I wish someone would have told me years ago how expensive college was/is... That would have helped A LOT of my stress and doubts about this next year of my life. But, God always seems to have a plan to stretch me, further my faith in Him and make me trust him whole-heartedly. Yes, I know He is taking care of me, but when I can't see what He is up to, I like most people get very uneasy. Me more than other, I think.

I thought I had everything in line, when-BAM! Something ELSE came up that went wrong, I needed to fix, or someone else plain screwed up.

I found out a week ago that I needed shots for school. I signed a waiver, but found out I cannot waiver ALL my immunizations. So, I went to the health department that next morning(After finding out at 3 a.m.!) and sat there waiting in line with every other person and their brother waiting to get THEIR shots for school that started this week. I knew it would be busy, but I didn't expect to sit there for 2 1/2. hours! I should have known... Oh well! There was no way to know since this was my first trip to the HD to actually RECEIVE shots. Anyway, I got there, got it done, went home, felt like C-R-A-P and went to bed. Went and ate, then went to bed again. I got the paper work finished. That's all I cared about! Alas, three days later I have the paper sent back telling me it was filled out incorrectly. The lady signed the paper 2021! Instead of, of course, 2011. So, I called and asked that they fax the proof of my immunization session to the school since they were the ones that messed up. Royally! I FINALLY got an email confirmation that it is indeed taken care of, this morning.

You think THAT is cuttin' it kinda close? Listen to this!

FAFSA. I needed my parents' tax information. MY tax information, a pin number, my mother's pin number and about a million other things, of which I did not have(of course) because I know the devil is trying to discourage me, well, guess what!! It ain't workin'! I know he is behind it, and will not have ANY part of it!

Anyway, back to the reason I brought FAFSA up. I needed this so the school could finish my Financial Aid part of my school file, but I had not yet gotten my Financial Aid application in yet, because there were, yet again, more problems.

This(Above) is about the number of books I am assuming I will have by the end of furthering my education.

And...THIS! Is about how much money I am pretty sure I will be out of by the time all those books,( pens, paper, shampoo, towels, SWEATERS, more sweaters, and long underwear...etc) are paid for! I am feeling very overwhelmed right now, but I am actually handling it all fairly well. For me, anyway.

I am not sure how to handle all of this because I don't know how to pay for school, and don't have any options as of right now. I am racking my brain. So far, I have come up with working more doubles at work and selling plasma. Well, I worked a few doubles, and am still virtually penniless. HA! I am going to try the whole Plasma thing...next week, hopefully, maybe. It's not much, but it might pay for gas for the trip there!

God WILL supply, this I know. I am always wondering "when" this will come to pass, though, and I end up not looking at what is right in front of me as His provision.

Please pray for me as I continue to seek God's will for my life and try to stay sane while doing it.